The Words I Don't Say

stop talking about him. 

that i’m lazy and i don’t need you pointing it out. i just hate it. 

this someone who I loved” I can’t believe I said this haha Well yahh, I do loved him. Happy special day to you :) 

I am friend who helps her friends at all times. When a friend became a bitch, I’m still the goody-goody friend. So that made me, the best friend everrr. When the friend is now everybody’s friend and the sweetheart of everyone that makes my eyeball roll to it’s limit. Arghhh. So, who am I now? I am the jealous bitch. Can’t help it. I’m still a friend though. But goody-goody no more.

about me that i just discovered recently.

• My voice is shaking whenever I lie about a very sensitive-personal-issue about my life, and also whenever I talked about things that is hurting me.
• There is no one that I could say, that is really close to me. And I think I like it that way, that no one really knows exactly the real me. Yeah. I’m absolutely comfortable with that. 

so many words beyond what you see.

my heart feels so heavy. i mess up. i’m so nervous. it feels so stranged. i think i’m scared. i don’t wanna face it. i want to run away. and i even feel like crying.

today is jan. 17, 2012. and it’s 7:45 pm. and i’m still trying. trying. trying.